Relevant

Thursday will be my last time to sing at Relevant.  It's crazy to think that an hour a week for the last few years has managed to have such an impact on my life, but it really has.  The people are incredible, the messages always tug at my heart and it has been a constant factor that I can count on when everything else seems to be a mess. 

There is a song that Emilia and I love called Grace Like Rain.  I'm not sure what it is about that song in particular, but it just means something more that the others. 

I know that worship isn't about the music necessarily, but, for me, that's when I am most connected to my faith and that's the time when I am able to let go and let God take over. 

Whenever we are able to do this song, it truly stops being about the music and it is about something so much more.  I can feel Emilia building it up with each verse and I can hear everyone else singing and it's a sort of peace and excitement all at the same time.  I love that the feeling is hard to explain- which is weird for me, because I am all about explaining how I feel about things- but that difficulty is almost the greatest part. I don't know that anyone else feels it or cares as much as I do, but it's moments like that and feelings like those that have gotten me through these last few years.  It's then that I know, without a doubt, that it's all ok.

I graduate in 15 days.  I have almost an entire math course to complete, my 45 page paper, and all of the other end of the year papers teachers love to assign. 
I leave Emporia in 3 weeks.  I have to train a replacement and hand over a job that I have grown extremely attached to.  I have to say goodbye to so many wonderful people. 
And there are a million things that I can't seem to get out of my head lately that make it difficult to get through each day with a smile.

But tonight, for a little more than 3 minutes, none of that mattered and that is exactly what I needed.